Kelly Clarkson opened up about a dark time in her past.
The original American Idol has made a successful career for nearly two decades and is currently rising in the charts again with the drop of her new single, “Love So Soft.” However, the singer says that she was in a very dark place when she was at her skinniest weight. In an interview with Attitude Magazine, Clarkson said:
“When I was really skinny, I wanted to kill myself. I was miserable, like inside and out, for four years of my life. But no one cared, because aesthetically you make sense. It was a very dark time for me. I thought the only way out was quitting. I like wrecked my knees and my feet because all I would do is put in headphones and run. I was at the gym all the time”
Clarkson clarified on Twitter that she “wasn’t ever miserable because I had to be thin. I said I was miserable & as a result I became thin.”
Just to clear something up. I wasn’t ever miserable because I had to be thin. I said I was miserable & as a result I became thin. https://t.co/N1uhyOWqMb
— Kelly Clarkson (@kelly_clarkson) October 24, 2017
Clarkson said things turned around with the release of her studio album, My December when she gained more creative control over her career and realized a change was needed.
“There’s a song on My December called Sober. There’s this line ‘picked the weeds but kept the flowers’ and I just live my life by that because you are who you surround yourself with. I was around some really negative people, and I got out of it because I had a lot of great people there too. It was a case of turning around, facing them and walking toward the light,” Kelly added.